I remember oh so clearly up to this date, what happen on that very day. It’s been 2 months plus now, and I know even up to years, I will never ever going to forget the birth of my beautiful babygirl.
The day before I turn 36 weeks, we went out as a family. To expo, I wanted goreng pisang chocolate cheese so badly. Walked around the whole of expo, happily eating my goreng pisang. Just like any normal day, went home, take bath, prayed, and sleep. The next morning, I was woken up by feeling a lil leak down there. You know when you want to come menses kinda leak. Yeap. I expected it was just discharge, so I walk to the toilet, cleaned up, and prayed subuh. I was sitting on a chair after praying, I start to feel the leak again. I told my husband and he asked to me to stand up. I stood, and water just starts leaking continuously. We thought we could just get it checked at kkh. So we did. I know leaking is normal because my waterbag didn’t totally burst yet. So I expected to be able to come home after the checked. Since I was still early. I have 1 month more to go sey. So we reached kkh at about 6.45am. Went straight to the delivery suite section and get them to checked me. Yeap, I am sure is leaking. They asked me to walk to the wheelchair so they could wheel me to the delivery room. “Wait? What? I’m giving birth today? Cannot go back?” When I was walking towards the chair, my waterbroke. Literally felt a gush of water/discharge dropped on my pants. Reaches the room, cleaned myself up again, change to their gown and they strap me down with the heartbeat monitor for the baby. Time check, 7am, 2cm dilated. My doctor came, “marissaaaaaa what happennnn, walk a lot issit yesterdayyyy” hahaha. Yes doctor, I got my goreng pisang. Hahaha. So since I was a week early before full term, doctor recommended me to have 2 dose of thigh jab to strengthen my baby’s lungs. 1st dose, 10am. The next dose should be by 10pm. Doctor said that if there’s nothing happening today, she will induce me the next morning. I heard a lot of rumours saying getting induce will be painful, so I tried my very best to trigger the labour even more by doing lots of walking and squats in the room. Haha. Got my breakfast after that and watched HBO all the way. I wanted to get some sleep badly, because I know I should, but these eyes just couldn’t shut it. Mild contractions started at about 11+am. Still manageable. After lunch, the contractions got a lil intense. I couldn’t handle pain that well, so I asked for the epidural. They checked me, 2pm+, still 2cm dilated. They couldn’t give me the epidural if I haven’t reached 4cm. So their next best offer was, gas mask and thigh jab. I couldn’t handle the pain, so I gave in to gas mask. To be honest, it doesn’t work at alllllllll. The contractions were intense, but stillllll manageable I guess. By 4+pm, it got to the extend of I couldn’t handle the contraction pains anymore. It was coming every 3-5 mins. And everytime it comes, I couldn’t breathe. That’s how painful it is. I asked for the epidural again. Checked, still 2cm. Wait… What? If this pain is still 2cm, then how does 10cm pain feels like?!?! I know I should complete my dose and wait till 10pm. But I don’t think I’ll be able to stand the pain for too long anymore. So I asked the nurse to get the baby monitor strap out from my tummy, and let me get up to help at least ease the pain. So they did. The moment I get up, didn’t even move a step, I started leaking again and I felt like I needed to pass motion. The nurse told me to lie down again, and she checked for dilation. 8cm. What?!? You just checked few mins ago and it’s just 2cm?!? They called the doctor. I was ready for my epidural. Waited and waited. Until the nurse said, “sorry ma’am, you are already at 9cm. Too late for the epidural.” What again?!? I’ve waited since afternoon for this pain relief, and now I’m told that I couldn’t take it?!?! Doctor arrived right on time when I was about to push. She explained on how to push and when to push. Straight forward. Just after 3 long pushes, I welcome my little angel.we had skin to skin contact. Husband did the azan. Took some pictures. And waited to be sent to our room. She was with us the whole 3 days I was there. Such a cutie pie. So small so cute so sweet. We’ve never been any happier! Since then, our life’s changed. We are parents. Responsibilities kicked in. We feel tired most of the time. Sometimes annoyed and agitated. But nothing can change the feelings of joy and happiness whenever we see our precious baby laughs. The attention she needed from us. We feel blessed, very blessed to be given this amanah by Allah SWT. No words could express the feelings we have for our babygirl. Syukur Alhamdulillah.